I'm sorry to hear that. The only smart thing that I can say is that at least you should be proud that you've had a good mom, and that she had the luck to live up the old age. Fact that you're so deeply touched only confirms that she was a good mother to you.
Mine abused me and my sister, both phisically and psychologically, so apart from hearing about motherly love from other people like you, and sensing the depth of your loss, I can only imagine the bits of how important a mother can be in person's life, what is the main thing that I've missed in life, and what turned it the way it did.
Perhaps a bit clumsy, but still, I'm trying to tell you, that motherly love doesn't come to every kid by default with giving birth from a biological mother, and since in your case it lasted for so long, it was the real thing, something of true value.
I've gone trough some similar times this spring. As some of you might recall, I wrote that I'm a mess since I have two in family written off by hospital, dying from cancer.at home, and another very uncertain with surgery gone bad, and hardly mobile. It was during winter when I wrote that.
Didn't mention the outcome, but instead I've sort of left it unspoken. It happend that at the end of april, both who were dying from cancer, died in just one week. Just as I've heard about second one, I said to my sister "let me ask a friend of mine if he is free to do some driving" (since other were not in the state to drive, and things for burial need to be arragned asap). She replied with "I've already talked to him, his mother died half an hour ago too...".
So, there I was, like... "ok, that is that"... Than picked phone and called a female friend of mine from another town, just to let her know, since she knew about illness, and she replied me with "this morning my mother in law died too".
I did not call anyone anymore that day. It seamed like some doomed day or something.
So, it ended as it was unfortunately expected, and I'm feeling like speeded up downhill (timewise) while everything seams to be motionless, and I don't really care. I'm still searching for my lost pet, that's my only true hope and desire.
Boomboxery wise I'm still trying to build up that Sony FH-150R. I've made long pauses, canceled ads, and most of all - given up from messing with several various units that need parts and repair at the same time. That is almost like a burden, and not pleasing at all, because if you have two or three that await, with not a single one completely finished, it becomes as if situation is forcing you to do it, rather than pleasure, joy, or at least tranquile pastitime.
Therefore, my goal is to get this Sony in almost mint state, and I would be happy to get it done by the end of the year.