Bill, I've lived with cats my whole life. Was up to seven at one time (almost got run out of the neighborhood!), and still have two. I know the joy and companionship these little critters can offer... and the heartache they leave behind when they die. Each is a unique individual, which means that each relationship is special. Fortunately, each one of my cats has also left behind some wonderful and unique memories, and in time those memories (which bring smiles) overcome the pain of the loss. It hurts me to hear about your grieving, but I'm so glad there are people like you who care for and protect these wonderful animals (especially the ones who, like yours, have experienced suffering). Whle no other cat will be able to replace the unique friendship you had with Damiel, I hope before long you're able to adopt another companion to fill the void left by Damiel's passing. There are so many cats who could benefit from the kind of love you have to offer!
Thanks for sharing your story!