Hey guys n’ gals… 
I know I have not been on the site in what seems an eternity…
I haven’t listened to any of my radios in what seems like an eternity…
There is something going on that I don’t want to get into too much detail about. I am usually reserved about my own (direct) problems as it relates to my health and well being because there are others far off worse than me.
A few months ago my wife became concerned because I all of the sudden became kind of lifeless. And she had a point. I struggled to get through workdays, to finish the youth football season, and as soon as I was finished with those activities, I just withdrew from the family and wanted to sleep.
Now, considering that I withdrew from the family, you can imagine what that meant for those outside my direct family. And please don’t get me wrong, you still are ‘La Familia’ to me. My mom and dad worried, my sisters worried, my employer is worried.
As a matter of fact my employer, and they are great, said that I wasn’t the same “10K†I was, that I was so quiet I was more like “10†as far as my demeanor.
I initially went to see the doc and was told that I had “Low Tâ€. This means of course that my body is not generating enough testosterone. So off to the races with the shots to see if that helped…
I seemed to perk up but then crashed right back down…
So now they are trying to figure out what is triggering an apparent imbalance within my system.
All this while being in the middle of a multi-million dollar dispute at work, starting the new project, and having to live away from home. (I had no break between projects so I have been on the road since what seems the dawn of time.)
Whatever it is has (according to doc) removed the “Happy Go Lucky†sprit and drive that I had. I am making it through work because I have to. My wife and kids need me. I get up at 4, on the job at 5, leave at 6, and buy something to eat, turn on the TV after work and let it put me to sleep. Outside of that I cannot find the drive to do anything. I don’t even want to talk on the phone unless it’s Tunya or the kids. And even then it’s not long.
I see my house, my truck, my collection, and believe it or not, just want to crack myself over the head because I’m not even taking care of things like I should. I just can’t get going!
And speaking of not taking care of things, there is a member here on this site, whom I owe dearly. I am sure plenty has been said bad, worse, horrible or otherwise due to the issue to be resolved. And it will be. Quickly.
Just know that it is out of character for me to be disengaged and though I’d prefer that my reputation precede me, it often that our character will remain judged by a single action or lack thereof. It is not only affecting me at Boomboxery, but many facets of my life.
To all at Boomboxery, a debt of gratitude is to be paid to my wife. She is concerned about the fact I am fighting depression, and what it could be that is causing it. I know something is changing within me, I just wish I knew what it was so I could control it. It may go away. Whatever it is I don’t want to need medication. But to get back on track, she asked that I write you all and clue you in. And she is right, I owe you all that.
I will contact you all soon. I will win whatever this fight is. And to Bobby, no, though I have thought about giving up my collection (fleeting thought) I don’t think my Sansui’s would be a part of that.
I love you all. I prefer to believe that I’m just hitting a physical stage that’s part of getting older I just need time for all of my parts to adjust to. Please hope and pray for me that’s all it is.
Freddie
I know I have not been on the site in what seems an eternity…
I haven’t listened to any of my radios in what seems like an eternity…
There is something going on that I don’t want to get into too much detail about. I am usually reserved about my own (direct) problems as it relates to my health and well being because there are others far off worse than me.
A few months ago my wife became concerned because I all of the sudden became kind of lifeless. And she had a point. I struggled to get through workdays, to finish the youth football season, and as soon as I was finished with those activities, I just withdrew from the family and wanted to sleep.
Now, considering that I withdrew from the family, you can imagine what that meant for those outside my direct family. And please don’t get me wrong, you still are ‘La Familia’ to me. My mom and dad worried, my sisters worried, my employer is worried.
As a matter of fact my employer, and they are great, said that I wasn’t the same “10K†I was, that I was so quiet I was more like “10†as far as my demeanor.
I initially went to see the doc and was told that I had “Low Tâ€. This means of course that my body is not generating enough testosterone. So off to the races with the shots to see if that helped…
I seemed to perk up but then crashed right back down…
So now they are trying to figure out what is triggering an apparent imbalance within my system.
All this while being in the middle of a multi-million dollar dispute at work, starting the new project, and having to live away from home. (I had no break between projects so I have been on the road since what seems the dawn of time.)
Whatever it is has (according to doc) removed the “Happy Go Lucky†sprit and drive that I had. I am making it through work because I have to. My wife and kids need me. I get up at 4, on the job at 5, leave at 6, and buy something to eat, turn on the TV after work and let it put me to sleep. Outside of that I cannot find the drive to do anything. I don’t even want to talk on the phone unless it’s Tunya or the kids. And even then it’s not long.
I see my house, my truck, my collection, and believe it or not, just want to crack myself over the head because I’m not even taking care of things like I should. I just can’t get going!
And speaking of not taking care of things, there is a member here on this site, whom I owe dearly. I am sure plenty has been said bad, worse, horrible or otherwise due to the issue to be resolved. And it will be. Quickly.
Just know that it is out of character for me to be disengaged and though I’d prefer that my reputation precede me, it often that our character will remain judged by a single action or lack thereof. It is not only affecting me at Boomboxery, but many facets of my life.
To all at Boomboxery, a debt of gratitude is to be paid to my wife. She is concerned about the fact I am fighting depression, and what it could be that is causing it. I know something is changing within me, I just wish I knew what it was so I could control it. It may go away. Whatever it is I don’t want to need medication. But to get back on track, she asked that I write you all and clue you in. And she is right, I owe you all that.
I will contact you all soon. I will win whatever this fight is. And to Bobby, no, though I have thought about giving up my collection (fleeting thought) I don’t think my Sansui’s would be a part of that.
I love you all. I prefer to believe that I’m just hitting a physical stage that’s part of getting older I just need time for all of my parts to adjust to. Please hope and pray for me that’s all it is.
Freddie
